Meditation: Eliminating Negative Traits
Start the day with the mantram, asking, “Who am I?” In the
evening you look again and see everything that happened in your
day. If all was harmonious, be glad and feel your peace. If any
upsetting incident arose, don’t judge yourself. See it clearly
and rectify it in your meditation. You are building a new life.
The second mantram we use this week along with kobum is nabum. Na
means “not” and bum means “I”—“I am not that.” To any feeling
which is not yours, any experience which is imposed on you by
anybody—society, religions, family or geographical conditions—to
that you say Nahum, I am not that, and your erase from the past
whatever bothers you. Again and again, say, “No, it is not me.”
In this way, what you are identifying with psychologically will
gradually be eliminated. These schoolgirl identifications limit
us, or hang us up. It may be an experience from childhood or our
adult life, which has caused a scar or fear. To all these we say,
“No, this is not me.” This is the meaning of Nahum.
If any fear comes, you think: “No, this has nothing to do with
me. Fear is a mental concept, This is not for me.” And then in
action, you do the thing of which you are afraid and immediately
the fear will be over.
Many people die because of fear—of cancer, heart disease or other
things. A story will explain what I mean. One day merchant was
salting along a road leading to the city of Bahgdad. Before long
he met another traveler and they began to walk and talk together.
The first asked to second where he was going and he replied that
he was going a to Baghdad also. When asked what is business was
there, the traveler said. That he was Plague and he was going to
visit Baghdad and kill many people there. The first man was
amazed and asked the Plague how many people he would kill in the
city. The Plague told him that he would kill 500 people. As they
neared the city they parted company and went their separate ways.
Then a great wave of sickness struck Baghdad and eventually 5,000
people died as a result.
Two months later the merchant was leaving the city to return to
his home after finishing his business there. As he walked along
the road, again he met the mysterious traveller whom he recognized
as the Plague. Immediately he said, “My friend, you lied to me
when we talked before.” The Plague asked, “What do you mean?”
Then the merchant said, “You told me you would kill only 500
people, but now 5,000 have died of the plague in Baghdad.” “It is
true,” the Plague replied, “but I did not lie to you.” “What do
you mean?” Asked the merchant, “You told me you would kill only
500 people and yet 5,000 have died. How can you sayyou did not
lie?” The Plague said, “I only killed 500 people. The rest have
died from their fear of the sickness and of dying. I only took
500 lives, the others killed themselves with their own fears.”
When fear takes root in our mind, then the plant can grow and
blossom and bear its fruit of suffering, So now we say nahum and
we uproot all our fears before they can bloom. Again and again
you have to deny that this is you until your mind is convinced.
Saying this once, your mind won'’ be free. You must be a little
hard with yourself while you take the heat, then you go into cold
water, and then back. When you are both hot and cold with your
mind, you drop all your past fears.
Now when you say kuhum you see exactly what you are, without
anybody’s opinion or projection or conditioning, It may take time,
but you will go deeper and deeper until you see yourself exactly.
Then you say Nahum to anything which drags you down, holds you or
gives you any negative feeling. Saying nahum you throw it out.
Working with these powerful mantras, we go deeper and we relax.
Then we find our meditation is gentle and peaceful; we are
eliminating al negative feelings and building the good feeling of
being ourselves. Working this way for one year, a little each
morning and each night, everything will be changed—our business,
our family, our friends, the quality of our life and mind—all will
be improved. When we change inside, everything around us also
changes. Using these mantras, we are learning how to go deeper
into the subconscious level, deep into our past where we erase and
is never too late. Meditation has the power to start new life
from any moment. This way, every day becomes a beautiful dawn to
bring in light. We see in ourselves that which we are seeking in
all the teacher. Every day the sun bring the teacher. Avatar
means reincarnation; each day bring the reincarnation of the sun.
And if you don’t see the light in the sun, how can you see the
light anywhere else? The sun represents light inside as well as
outside. We only need to open ourselves to that light and we will
be able to experience joy.
Our purpose in meditation is to enjoy the symphony of life. For
that we need three aspects—the hand, the head and the heart,
working in harmony. What our hands do must be in our head and
what is in our head must shine from our heat. Our body, mind and
spirit must be synchronized and work on the same frequency. Then
we don’t do things in separation; that is, we don’t do some thing
with our body which we don’t believe in, or some thing with our
mind which our heart opposes. Each day observe how many hours you
are able to spend with these three aspects in harmony and
synchronization. For this you sit and use the mantras kahum, and